here we are

and so, we are here once more
sharing loves, laugh and tears
though never thought of it
we will be in this lovely stage again

still...it spooks me to start
cause, once it was ended with tears

and now, all I asked
stay with me, always....
cause I gave you my all

hello...world

It's been a while...quite long actually
since my last post..

suddenly, Time wasn't on my side lately
terlalu klise kalo aku bilang sibuk
karena mmg gak sibuk-sibuk banget
its just I don't have....passion lately =)

so forgive me for abandoned my own world

pusing!

OMG, I just don't know what I feel right now
something just not right when you're not around
something in his way, woos me
Thinking, those silly things we made
and those crazy time we had
it's just makes me smile and brighten my day

I didn't wish this would happened
All I know, I had fun with you, and so do u, I supposed
I don't want to fall in love with you
cause I know its just not right

Ahh....pusiiiinggggggggg

you

How are you? How is your life lately?
Did you have fun? are you busy?
All questions rumbling in my mind
as I listening to your song

This feeling, right now, I can't describe
somehow confusing me
It's not love, but I do know I miss you
It's not love, but I do know I need you
and I do hope it is not love

Fake Sun

Your my Sun, My fake Sun
Who shines my days
Though its not bright
But I still can see the path in front of me

Your my Sun, My dear artificial Sun
My one and only lights
Who always come after the dawn

Though my one and only wish
That you will never stop rising each day
But, you suddenly stop shinning above me
Stop shadowing my life
I lost my sun

Till we met again...

Sometimes our dreams faded along the way

And when your hear the silence whisper

You’ll think of me

In the next world, we may meet again

And thats when you’ll called my name

once again…

and realized, how I meant for you

don't know

Am I wrong to choose my own path?
Am I wrong to choose my own destiny
or am I wrong to even think that I was wrong?

I tried to escaped from what I felt
but I just couldn't
Even if I expose myself to the brilliant wind
It won't go away, I look at myself
and I hate it

for what I've done
for what couldn't do
for everything

Dua Orang

Aku tahu, Ia menatap ku
Walau dari kejauhan
Ia tersenyum seakan aku menyapanya

Aku tahu, Ia membelai ku
Walau tidak bersentuhan sekalipun
Ia berbisik walau aku tak mendengar

Aku tahu, Ia mengagumi ku
Walau Ia ada tambatan hatinya
Begitu juga aku

Dua orang yang terjebak dalam cinta & kesetiaan
Kekaguman dan kebosanan
Dua orang yang mencari udara segar
Untuk bernafas, walau sesaat

Do people changes?

akhir2 ini gue jadi sering chatting sama temen SMA yang sedikit membuat gue amazed sama dia, tiba2 aja jadi asik ngobrol sama dia, jadi asik cela-celaan, dan lebih membuat gue amazed itu dia bisa memberi gue satu masukan (walau agak maksa) yang berharga dan yg gk pernah kepikiran sama gue ato temen-temen gue lainnya padahal nasihat dia itu simple banget dan logis! sangkin amazednya gue sampe bilang "ternyata ngobrol sama elo tuh asik yah, gak nyangka gue lo bisa se asik ini di ajak curhat2an" and he just reply "baru tau!" hihihi jutek nya sedikit tidak berubah

Then, gue curhat2an sama temen cewe gue yg lain biasalah membicarakan si temen gw ini, gue bilang aneh ya, dia bisa berubah bgt, asik banget di ajak ngobrol, bisa becanda dan bisa curhat! secara dulu tuh dia itu terkenal sebagai Mr. Cool, cuek, judes, jutek, semuanya yg jelek2 tp berubung muka dia cakep, tinggi dan Mr. Famous alhasil banyak lah cewe-cewe naksir dia (uhm..not me) eh, temen cewe gue cuma menjawab dengan santai dan singkat namun padat
"yah wajar dong ka, secara dia itu mantan fans lo!" ihhh....ha....tidak membantu!

I don't believe that people just simply changed they changed because they want it to changes
not just simply changed, it need times, experiences , perlu satu titik yang membuat orang menjadi berubah

Say Anything

Say anything....
that can hurt me
even if its meaningless
even if it's just a sweet lie

Say anything...
to my lying heart
Say anything...
Whatever you want to say

Say anything.....
just don't tell me you love me
need me, adore me
it will dry my every tears

The Smile

I saw that smile again
A smile that has been missed
in many moon
been gone since you left me

and in one night
one smile put a rainbow
vividly in my dream which I try to reached
but its vanished with the dawn
as I woke up

need a holiday

There is a time when you hates people, when you want to be somewhere else
some new place, where no one knows you, not to be known by people
no "hi" no meaningless words.

Place where people can just see you the way you want it too, no judgment
so you can express anything you want without being fear, shy or whatever it is
ah..is that place exist?



~sigh~ I think I need a holiday, ne?

Di bukit

Di bukit itu aku menunggu mu
belaian angin tak mampu merayu ku
tak mampu menghapus ingatan aku akan kamu

Setiap jejak yang kau pijak di rumput
akan aku ikuti, tanpa sadar
setiap wangi yang melekat pada angin
seperti mengingatkan aku pada mu
menghantarku ke tempat ini

Di bukit itu aku masih menunggu

in dreams

Once again
I saw you in my dream
with that questioned face
that I never forget

did you regret for leaving alone?
or did you sad looking at me
alone and clueless?

Hint me so I can walk longer
Guide me so I walk in the path
and please....
never leave even only in my dreams

Tentang Rindu

Seperti kerinduan pada Allah yang tidak terlihat
pada sahabat yang jauh
pada anak yang merantau
pada kekasih yang jauh di mata

Kerinduan yang tidak berujung
Kerinduan yang tidak berbatas
Kerinduan pada orang terkasih
yang telah meninggalkan kita

Menipiskan batas antara
Keikhlasan dengan Melupakan
Menipiskan batas antara
Mimpi dan realita
Sungguh...perasaan yang menggalaukan

The Line

I said
I wanna start something new
but you told my hand so tight
so I can't walk any longer

I said
I don't need you but you know I was lied
and you strokes my hair
whispering those magic words

Yet, here I am
still waiting in a thin line
of Love and Adore
With no final words

help!

Tell me, somebody tell me
Why this winding road will never end
Help me, somebody help me
I'm loosing my breath

Did you ever love me as much as I did?
Did you even remember me as much as I did?

I'm still calling out your name
here in my dreams and days

Even if I'll finally all alone
I still love you

Untuk Semua Ibu

Dalam Cahaya aku duduk sendiri
Ia memanggilku dengan suara lembutnya
Tapi aku masih termenung
Ia membelaiku dengan tangan lembutnya
Tapi aku masih menangis
dan ia tetap menemani ku

Dalam semua hal
Semakin ku lihat kelembutan
Tanpa pamrihnya

Dalam semua hal
Semakin ku temukan cinta
dan keagungan dirinya

Happy Mother's Day

A Chance

Limitless undying love
That I gave you once
Its slowly shattered
Like an endless rains
It drops
Run away blindly
as they trying to escape
You always questioning me
Yet you know the answer
Tied me to your heart
So I can love you with no limit
One more time

Cerita Masa Lalu

Maybe it’s just a feeling
That we never shared
Because I suddenly longing for your figure
No, it’s not love
Because I’m sure we’re just admiring each other
And now here I’m
Missing you alone

~sigh~
tiba-tiba gue kangen banget sama temen gue yang satu ini, sahabat terbaik yang pernah ada dan memang udah mungkin 10 tahun gak ketemu tapi kita masih keep in touch. Pertama kenal sama dia itu udah lama banget waktu gue masih jadi pemberontak orangtua (ABG) gue masih SMP sedangkan dia kalo gak salah baru lulus SMA emang jauh banget bedanya, tp lucunya begitu kenal gue sama dia langsung deket kalo istilah jaman sekarang langsung klik lah, pada hal bisa di bilang kenalnya juga kagak ada sama sekali embel-embel PeDeKaTe, just pure friendship, mungkin karena jarak umur yang jauh dan waktu itu tampang gue juga masih culun abis, beside he’s got a girlfriend! So we’re like sibling, brother and sister.

Sejak saat itu, gue sama dia itu nempel banget bahkan lebih deket gue sama dia ketimbang gue sama kakak-kakak gue sendiri, padahal sama sekali gak ada rasa suka, naksir atau apalah, Cuma yang gue tau rasa nyaman dan happy aja kalo sama dia, pun kalo ketemu gak ada rasa kangen jadi gue yakin seyakin-yakinnya kagak ada yang namanya cinta, lagian umur segitu gue masih belum suka sama cowo (ia..agak telat).

Then, setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan, masa akhir SMP gue harus pindah kota saat itu gue bete banget baru dapet temen asik udah harus pindah (lagi!) dia pun kelihatannya bete banget, katanya waktu itu dia bakal kangen jahilin gue (oh yes..dia teramat sangat jahil) tapi yah…mau gimana lagi, I have to go…and before I left he sang this sweet song from Mr.BiG wild world, dan dia bilang dengerin liriknya baik-baik yah…waktu itu gue mana ngerti maksudnya apaan secara gue lemot dot com gitu dan gue sih seneng-seneng aja. Dan belakangan setelah bertahun-tahun gue denger lagu itu baru gue ngerti

Now that I’ve lost everything to you
you said you wanna start something new
it’s breaking my heart you’re leaving
………coz I don’t wanna see you sad girl
don’t be a bad girl…baby I love you…….

Years after years, waktu liburan sekolah gue balik ke kota and things had changes, gue udah mulai naksir cowo yang kebetulan banget pindah ke kota itu (what a world!) dan pastilah gue ketemu temen gue itu sambil jalan-jalan bareng sama cowo yang gue taksir and well…he short of jadi supir erhmmm bodyguard gue kencan bertiga (gak banget deh)

nah yang buat gue jadi berpikir something happen between us (me and my friend) itu perlakuan dia yang selama ini gue anggap biasa aja…seperti klo lagi nyebrang dia pasti megangin tangan gue dan kalo lagi jalan-jalan kita pasti gandengan, sampe cowo yang gue taksir pun bingung dan sempet nanya gue sama dia itu pernah pacaran yah..hahahahha…..temen-temen gue dan dia pun pada nanyain, and maybe I’m being denial, gue terus-terusan mikir gk ada apa-apa gue udanh terlanjur anggap dia kakak.

Sampe pada akhir masa liburan dia nganter gue balik ke rumah tempat gue nginep, time to say goodbye..haduh…kalo di inget-inget itu canggung banget jadinya, I can see trough his eyes ada yang harus dia bilang, dan saat ini lah tiba-tiba gue nyadar perlakuan dia sama gue selama ini itu memang a bit special, semua lagu-lagu, kejahilan dan perhatian dia selama ini tuh beda, mungkin gue ke ge-eran atau apa lah…tapi sueeerrr….sepertinya dia mau bilang sesuatu tp gak jadi dan akhirnya dia Cuma bilang I’ll be missing you sambil megang pipi gue and he gave me a hug dan gue cuma senyum mungkin juga blushing, speechless abis!

Then that’s it……, No magical words, nothing
But we’re still friend and he’s happily married

Makanya gue yakin rasa kangen itu ada hanya karena rasa sayang dan saling mengagumi yang dulu ada gak pernah di ucapkan, tapi gue juga seneng kata-kata semacam itu gak pernah keluar dari mulut dia, mungkin kalo sempet keluar hubungan gue sama dia mungkin gak sebaik saat ini.

~sigh~